Monthly Archives: October 2015

A Rainbow in The Dark

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Rainbows are those things that signify when the storm is over with, or going to be over with. It is the sign of hope, the significator of things in manifest, and, as well, the thing that reminds us of what just passed through our lives and is now on its way out. We don’t fear rainbows, but we have a hard time seeing them in the dark…

“I cry out for magic, see it dancing in the light” (Ronnie James Dio, “Rainbow in The Dark“)

It has been a very long time since I have written this particular blog consecutively within days. I will be honest with all of you right now – I am also one who feels like she is watching life happen to other people, in grand fashion, almost like that kid I wrote about a long time ago, the kid who is made to wait for their own birthday cake and ice cream soup and the very kid who ends up with the option to use a soup spoon or a straw to “enjoy” their own birthday cake with. Right now it feels like we are all in this strange sort of vortex, and one that seems to not let up in terms of the thought in all of our heads that may well read or sound like WHAT THE FUCK?

We are, all of us, crying out for the magic that we keep believing in, and believe in it we should, if for no other reason than that it gives us something to hope for.

No, this is not me saying that we have nothing to hope for, but me telling us all that we have all been through so very many trying things over these last almost ten years, and in that time we have all and each managed to get to this point where it is that the things that no longer matter in terms of who we are will no longer be here very soon. For the life of us, we are trying so hard to hang on to what we were and who we were that we do not realize that that person is no longer with us. That person who we were a mere one year ago is no longer here. We keep trying to revive them and trying to make them come back and that person just keeps on freeing themselves from our grip.

We are like the person who is seeking the rainbow in the darkness, the one who does not realize that no matter what, the rainbow exists and will never not. The rainbow is there, within us, where it is meant to be, where it does the most good for us and where it is that we need it to be – we need the reassurance that we are going to be okay after all this crap that we are experiencing subsides, if for nothing else, than just to know that we are the very magic that makes it all happen. We are the rainbow in the darkness of our own lives.

We are the very ones who assigns the energy to whatever it is in our lives that we are experiencing. I know that the one thing that is really harming my Taurean moon is that for a long time I have chosen to hang on to whatever it is that I thought was keeping her – my bull in the middle – safe from harm. It was through all of these awful things that have come into my own life that have actually strengthened her and reminded her that she does not need too much, that she does not need anyone to bring to her the things that her heart desires. The Pisces sun, the one to whom I and many others have, for years, referred to as “The Shark,” is feeling every little tiny bit of the energy that the world is unwittingly “subletting” to us all in the manner that is simply the energy that we just do not want to deal with anymore awfulness, that we are tired, collectively, of all of the people who still do not want to (yes – WANT TO) see things in the manner that the entirety of mankind is beginning to see it.

I am talking about those who seem to believe that still, they can put a price tag on everything that they want to, give a dollar value, and then ascribe that value to people. People are not things, folks, and people are not going to like being thought of as such, and people are god damned tired of other unenlightened people thinking that in order to get their way that all they have to do is try to buy their way to it. It does not work that way, at all. What we are doing at this time is refining ourselves, and we are finding our way to our tribes, our soul mates, our lives, and there are people on this planet who are still so scathingly foolish, scathingly selfish and scathingly clueless in terms of what their evil deeds are doing, not to the people who they are directing this ire towards, but really, to themselves. They don’t realize that they have already lost the battle, that they have nothing left within their tangible arsenal that they can use against anyone else, so they try for the throat of the world through the emotions. Problem is, at least for them, is that they are fighting, unarmed, in a battle that they are nowhere near ready to fight.

And fighting is not what we are meant for, at all. We are meant to be with one another, to Love one another, to give to each other the things that we are not so much without, but that we still have to strengthen. The darkness serves us with knowing that if we “owe,” that maybe it is not really that we owe, but that we are being sought out to take care of other peoples’ bullshit. Other people don’t clean up after themselves, and this is not only about the actual messes that are made, but are more about the messes that they do to themselves in terms of the soul and terms of the Love that they do not have for themselves. This is when they seek out the pot of gold at the end of a rainbow, and this is when it is that we who are enlightened to this much are called to make the choice – do we save them, or do we save ourselves?


We all know this answer, but because a lot of us were taught that we have to sacrifice all of our own self to give at the altar of other peoples’ arrogance, other peoples’ starving souls, other people, period, and because we were trained that way a long, long time ago, after we came into our physical selves, the only thing that we do know is how to give until it hurts – hurts us emotionally, spiritually, physically, financially, mentally…and we do not understand that the more that we give, and the less that we have for ourselves, the less that we have in terms of how it is that we go about seeing to it that we are okay, even as we are trying hard to make sure that the rest of our own tribe is as okay. This is as it ought to be.

The world, however, wants and expects for us to do what it wants, and the world wants for us to suffer at its whim because the world wants us to believe,still, that the only one right way to do things is by the world’s expectations and the worlds level of things being seen to and made ready for the next part of all these things happening in our lives and in our faces. We want so much for ourselves, want so much more for the people in our lives, and we are now tired of trying, even though trying is what we are all the very best at. We are phenomenal at trying, not realizing that it is within all of those things that we mark as being “failure” that at those times when we felt like that and feel like that, what we are actually doing is mastering whatever it is that we think we are ‘failing’ to do the ‘right’ way.

This…failure…thing, it is our rainbow in the dark. It is the thing that we all fear doing – not failing, but learning. We forget sometimes that we are not perfect, that other people have the very propensity to NOT evolve, and in not doing so, they fail themselves. I am reminded of a woman who believes that because she can buy her way in this world, that she is also allowed to demand that the world promise her that it is willing to be bought, and this is not the truth. On the part of the woman, it is her lesson, through people who she does this to, to learn that her money cannot buy people. She does not realize that she is NOT the woman in “Stairway to Heaven,” where, “with a word, she can get what she came for.”

Lots of humans being don’t understand that the way of the almighty dollar is no longer the way that we are allowing ourselves to be treated. While there well may be still people on this planet sharing the air with us who can be bought, for the majority of us, our integrity cannot be bought. Lots of people are not getting a clue in terms of the “boss of the world” and the games that people play with us is no longer being played. We are serious- fuckingly so – and we are not letting people tell us who we are by means of the money they are willing to pay for us to become their emotional and spiritual “escorts.” Lots of people are still playing the “poor me” game, and many more are denying the fact that the time has come for all of us to reinvent who we are. This is not my stating that we have to start over, because there is not enough time for that to happen. What I AM saying is that it is time for us to pick up where we left off and start from here.

Start from here

MANY times, just in this last week alone, I have heard it, over and over, not from one person but from a whole LOT of people – they are scared that they are going to have to start over, no matter what it is that they have to start over. I am not immune to this. I had to do it. I didn’t want to do it, and not because I know that I already did what I am doing now, but because I did not think about it in terms of my already knowing what I am doing in this world in terms of what I know. I already know a whole lot about the human condition, and I already know what makes us tick in a biological sense as it pertains to the psychological sense. I already know all of this. I did not think in terms of my already being basically done with learning about the way the human mind works, about the way that biologically, it lends to our healing, and the way that we get there in terms of our muddled thinking. Yet, because of the path that I am taking – the path of teaching what I know that is not only contained in all of those textbooks, contained within the halls of academia – this is the way that I have had to “start from here,” which now that I have had time to think about it, really is not starting over.

What it has given me, at least in terms of EVERYTHING that I intend to do with this time in my life, is the ability to come up with newer coaching programs, is the ability through my own measure of creativity to assign new roles to old but enjoyable activities, activities which, through all that I am doing now toward this one thing, will be part of the madness that is teaching, that is giving to the world the healing from within that is my own. This is the truth, right now, for a whole lot of us. Not just one person, but EVERY person in my life and with whom I share a particular bond of tribal closeness is going through something significant in their lives. We have not given ourselves enough credit, have not believed the pat on the back that we each and all have given to others, and it is hard for us to do this for ourselves because we do not believe that who we are is right for the time being.

Let me make you aware of one true thing – we are the ones who are creating the Now, the ones who have chosen to take on the Kuleana of who we are, of what we each and all represent, of who we are within the tribes we call our own, and all of us are not aware that this is all guided by the hand of Spirit, is meant to refine us through making us better through what we perceive as being failure. What we need to know, to believe, to take on as being our own personal truth, our mantra in the world is that we are more bad ass than we want to believe.

More Bad Ass than We Want to Believe

Think in terms of a rainbow, in all of its beauty, and all of its perfection, and how, in the dark, it cannot be seen, at least not in the brilliance that we typically see it, by means of the sun through the drops of rain which create a prism. The only light in the night time is the moon and the stars. What we do not think about is that, while the moon might be covered in the haziness of the clouds int he night time sky, there still is the rainbow, and it is in the dark. If we take that same light of the day, and apply it to the subdued light of the moon and really thought about the fact that, from a scientific point of view, the rainbow is there. We just cannot see it in the manner that we see it in the day time.

We cannot see the rainbow in the dark, because we have not been taught properly to understand that that which is there by day (visible) is still also there at night (we know it is there, we just cannot see it, because the dark hides it – making it ‘invisible’). It is like the monsters in the closets of our minds, which are the same monsters that we, as children, envision in the closet in our bedrooms, the closet door closed, our imaginations fully in play as we see the shadows there that keep us with our heads under the covers. We think we are safe from the monsters, but the reality is that there are no monsters – only our selves there to make us afraid, by means of words from others. We fear not living up to whatever it is that we think we have to, that has been presented to us by others that we take on as our truth, because no matter who says what to me – we like being accepted, love being acceptable just as we are, and more than anything, we loathe the thought that we are somehow not as great as we are being told we are.

The moment that we take on that truth, even as we know it is believable, all it takes is one fucking jack ass to say something in deference to it, and suddenly our resolve and our sense of personal greatness have been impeded, harmed, made to feel like it is the biggest lie that we not only heard, believed, but even told ourselves. We need to stop, immediately, with this practice, because we also need to understand that really, we cannot save everyone else, namely and especially if right this moment the one person who we need to believe and to tend to is our very selves. This does not mean we cannot continue to tend to them, but that we also need to attend to us. We forget about ourselves, because we are so very dearly concerned with the welfare and well being of our tribes that we forget about us.

We forget about us

Now…do NOT get me wrong…we still are okay to give to others what we have always given to them. However, we need to teach ourselves how to balance theirs versus ours. This is not saying that we have to tell the ones who we love the very most that we cannot be there for them. It means that somewhere within our scope of being, we have to see there who can hang on their own, who has been siphoning us for our good, who has been trying harder to not do for themselves, and we have to take the time away from them in order that we can see ourselves. For me this included a whole lot of people who I just could no longer carry the weight of their heartache for, and believe it when I say it was the hardest thing in the world for me to do.

I had to say goodbye to being the hero in their lives, so that I could, with others, attend to me. Our healing is contained within our own selves, but it is also from others who, just like us, and who are just like us, might not heal us in the manner that I help other people heal themselves, but, they present to us for us who we are to them. When we are shown who we are to anyone else, it rectifies a whole lot of who we thought we were by others who were unkind in their portrayal of us and to us. We want to be all things to all people, but we forget that the people in our lives at this moment are needed too, as much as who we are is needed by them. This is not a time of dependency, but a time of learning independence from the idea that without the ugliness that others bring to us, we will not know what is the beauty.

I beg to differ.

We know what beauty is.

Beauty is why we know what is ugly.

…not the other way around…

The Rainbow, even in the dark, exists. Once it is that the clouds disperse, it is by the very light of the moon that we see the rainbow in a very different light, in a manner that perhaps, in the past, we hadn’t even thought about being for real. We see the beauty in the darkness, in all of its subdued brilliance…

I Love You All !






Headlong into the Light (via the darkness…a message from Spirit, as interpretted by RevRoxie22)



Whether you want to read this or not, whether you like the truths you are about to read, at this time in everyone’s life on this particular planet, a whole lot of stuff is happening, and most of it is not making any of us feel any other way than anxious, than like we are the lowest form of life on the planet, that we have lost all that we really need to lose, and that the more we turn inward and only into ourselves, the safer we will be. This is not the truth, and it will never be…

“Stuff is Shit…”

I won’t ever forget receiving that text, because it was right around that time that things in our lives as a collective whole started to become…well..shitty. This is not saying that things were not already horrific in the shittiest manner that they could be, but it is to say that as time passed, and a short time, no less, there came to be a whole lot more shitty things that have happened to all of us, in one way or another, and a whole lot of that shit made us all feel like we somehow have pissed the Goddess off.

Suffice it to say, there is a whole lot going on, and for the very life of the each of us, many, many of us are not understanding what the hell is going on. What I can say, for sure and with an absoluteness and according to the research that I have been doing for a long set of years now, we are in a pattern of learning, and the learning that we are doing right at this moment is sort of a make-up exam, or at least it feels that way.

Spirit tells me things…I say them to you all in writing…and what we each get from these messages is meant for us to think in another manner, which is EXACTLY what a whole lot of us are doing…even though it seems as though it is getting us nowhere. It is getting us where we need to be. It just doesn’t ‘feel’ like it…please, read on…

Let me tell you all about things that feel a certain way – you are not wrong. At least for the most part. I mean, you will know when you are wrong because (bear with me, please) the current planetary shit up above and going on in the cosmos is making it so that (a) – we are more inclined to state what it is that we are “seeing” with our mind’s eyes, and we all know how that works out (sometimes, we forget that it is symbolic, rather than actual, the things that we “see” there and more – most of the time, it really is only what we are not seeing as part of the vision…the actuality comes through via…) …(b) – we are also more inclined to see (and “see”) things from another perspective the moment that the actual truth of what we see there (and “see’ there) has been had by us. The (b) HAS to come from someplace else, because that is what we are also learning – we are learning to discern what it is that we are “seeing” and “feeling” versus what it is that our ego-selves are telling us to believe.

Our ego-selves, as I call it, is that part of us that interprets things but from the point of view that is only seen and known on the physical plane. Where it is that we are being directed to, via the planetary prompting (meaning that the push and the pull, the “yes” and the “no,” the things that make us believe something topically even though we know better…is directed by how we are interpreting the energies via who we are in our solar, lunar and ascendant sign selves…again…keep reading…Spirit talks…I write…and right now it seems like She is stuttering because She has SO MUCH to tell us all…bear with me…it’s a whole WHOLE LOT).

If you knew what it was that was going on in the cosmos, and you could relate the things that are going on in your specific life and apart from those within it who are the very closest to you, you would find there that there is a very blatant similarity this year to things going on as there was going on at this time last year, and it is likely – VERY HIGHLY LIKELY – that it is the VERY SAME THING. I could give a whole LOT of examples, from all of the very people with whom I share VERY VERY close ties with, but their stuff is none of anyone’s business unless they have made it that way.

However, and this IS Spirit telling me to tell you what is my own story, and it is a story that comes fraught with things that make a chick want to scream her head off, for no other reason than that I have already done what I thought I needed to do to get myself, in terms of being educated, as close as I could get, even with GPA, to earning my PhD. Imagine the fucking mind blowing electricity of anger that I felt when I was told, for the very last time, that the credits I earned via private university were USELESS toward that goal of becoming a college level educator.

It was not pretty at all. I was not happy, and I felt very stuck. There was only one thing that I could do, and that one thing was to start all over again. And you can BET your very last dollar that to have to do it all over again, from junior college at an Associates, is not something that I cared to have to do. I did not have the money to do it the way that I wanted to, and I did not have the patience to have to deal with all of the hoops that I knew I was going to have to and did end up having to jump through. None the less, I am now a full time student (again). While I much enjoy learning, and the one place that I know I belong is in a college classroom, there is always going to be that energy of impatience, that energy of “I don’t want to do this because I HAVE TO do this…and yeah, in order for me to rise to that level of what the hell it is that I am on my way to doing…I HAD TO and did…I started my way to my Doctorate in Clinical Psychology.

Perhaps it is because there are things and people there that I need to discover, and it is because, also, I know that in order to know the animal called “a college student fresh outta high school,” just like any good research scientist will do – I am seeing this time as my own “Jane Goodall” moment. This does not mean that I see my fellow students who are younger than I am as chimps and me as the only one there for a reason. It means that through that understanding of people – young people – I will be able to better communicate with them all of the things that, to this point in my own human beingness, I have learned.

There are a lot of us who are hurting and we are doing so because other people have brought us the pain that THEY…not US….are supposed to deal with. Any time at all that anyone else at all brings us a modicum of pain, you can best bet your asses that the reason they are doing so is because they are also in a lot of pain.

By ‘pain’ I do not mean the sort that they are putting on us. What I mean is that their pain is caused by their own selves. They need someplace to let it out, and rather than running headlong through it so that they can figure out what the fuck it is that they are not seeing and that they are projecting onto us, they avoid the healing and give that…bullshit…to whoever they want to make suffer. And suffer we do, because people are, at this moment, and for MONTHS now, living out their ideal of being the biggest, most selfish assholes that they can muster being. What I have been ‘shown’ and ‘told’ is that it is gonna suck (and we all know that it indeed DOES suck), and that we are going to live through it (because all lessons are temporary, even for selfish assholes like the ones who we are ALL dealing with), and that in the end, when we think it is the end, it will only be the end of that particular turmoil for us, but for the people who brought it to us.

They will continue to suffer if they do not see with their own souls the things that they are going through and are putting onto others to have to deal with. it is all ego based, and all of it points to people NOT wanting to take responsibility for the things that they have already gotten away with in the past, that they want to believe they will continue to get away with. But the ‘alas’ is on them. The “Alas” is on them because this is their M.O. – to do nothing, meaning that they will also change not a fucking thing about themselves. They will continue, with purpose and through the energy that they think is all about themselves, where instead of being angry with the situation, they would rather go with what they know and start the same fucking situation, with new people (read: US…lightworkers, healers, seers, alchemists…you know…PEOPLE WHO ARE TRYING HARD TO STAY THE COURSE OF THE WARRIOR). Their onus is that they do not realize that the people who they are trying to bring this to are the very people who are, somehow, GOING TO reveal their sins, not only to the people who need them revealed, but on a much larger scale.

The thing that is most prominent and stands out as the prevailing thought (even as it stands right next to the one thought that is ALWAYS the most predominant one at all times) is that, yes, we are going to go through a whole lot, but, once it is that we have completed this particular thing, once we have learned something of value, not about the situation, but how it brought out of the each and all of us, both singularly and collectively, the very highest best person at the moment that we can be (because we have suffered enough these last twelve months to at least be a good candidate for a straight jacket), even though at that moment, the last thing we want to do is be good about things.

We are sick of crying, and sick of trying, and sick of doing things that make us feel like we are the lowest form of life on the planet. We are tired as hell of explaining ourselves, and most of all, we are dead tired of thinking that the people with whom we share the most are somehow suffering at our hands. We are not. They are not.

We are not going to have to suffer like this anymore, and the reason is that from this place where we think we are not sharp, we are being sharpened. And from that place where we think there is no hope, it instead springs eternal because that is just how a lot of us workers of the light roll, not because of anything other than that is who we really are. We are not going to have to deal with this sort of shit anymore because we will see it, and we will feel it, and when it arrives, we will already have things well in place to make sure that when…or if…it rears itself again, we are prepared for the fight that will not feel like a fight but instead will just be reminiscent of things.

Reminiscing is the thing that we are phenomenal at, but we do so with things that either make us feel really really great, or really really lousy. I am great at feeling lousy. I am so good at feeling lousy, and none of what I am feeling lousy about is anything that I alone can do much about. Not because it involves other people, because on that level, it doesn’t. It only has to do with me and the things I am perceiving as others trying to make me feel the way that I feel right this moment. It is not anyone else’s fault that I want to cry, or that I want to not have to deal with anything that I am going through right now, because everything that I am going through right now, on my own and with my own life, are things that no one else can do for me. This is the other thing that I dreamed about last night, which was not something that I do often, at least in the manner that it sticks with me throughout the day during waking hours.

The dream showed me that we are all on this same path, and the path is one that is not without its challenges. We are all on this path with our tribes. To this dream I can add my cousin’s vision of an elder handing her something, and that something she was handed made no sense to me, but when I thought more about it, suddenly it made sense. We are on this path, and it is chosen by us long before we show up in our skin. What it is is that we are each handed lessons, and some of those lessons are make up exams in that, the way that we are supposed to handle things is right in our faces. I know that I have to go to school. HAVE TO.

Collectively, we gotta do things from that place within us that is the fighter, the place that is NOT “dog-eat-dog” but rather and only “It’s a jungle out there, and I am the biggest, most battle-worn cat in the joint.” We have to come away from the fear, from the things that rip us into shreds and have to turn those shreds into something palatable. It is no easy task. As long as we know, for sure, who is in our corner, with us there, battle-worn and scarred, like we are, and as long as we know, accept, believe that no matter how bad things are right this moment, that there is an end, and it is an end that is needed and that we are the ONLY ONES who can produce that end for the shittiest people who we know, already, half the battle is won. (Said she as she tries to talk herself in to this truth)

Running headlong into the light is what is in order, as per the message of the Goddess. Running headlong into the light, where the darkness is known but is what it is meant to be, which is nothing short of a lesson learned through that period and those times in our lives when we would much rather just sit and wait for the last ball to drop.

What we do not realize is that this time, it is not a sport, not a game, and is the one time in all of our lives that we also do not realize that we have already won, even if it feels like we are the biggest losers on the fuckin’ planet.

#TRUTH  #LeoRising

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The Opposite Way

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When things seem as though they are one way and no way else, it may well be time to think in the Opposite Way.

Because of my Taurean moon, there are not a lot of things that, once it is that I have decided that the things that I need to happen absolutely need to happen, and once it is that I am solid on that choice, given all of the ways that I am able to discern an outcome, or possible outcome, that will not only benefit me but those who are closest to me, it is difficult to get me to change my mind.

Now, this is not saying that I am stuck to a decision and will not consider other things to do. It is saying that there are times when we know that what we want to see and what we need to see are the same thing, and we know that what we are sensing and seeing there as the outcome (or possible outcome among many other good, or even better outcomes) will be the actual outcome (or better…can’t for get that it can be better than what we are thinking), most of us humans being will end up sticking to that one way of Knowing, that one way of getting to the end result that we want, even if we have to manipulate things to go that way. Yet, manipulating things to go the way that we want them to go versus the way that they need to go is where we each and all get ourselves tripped up.

We are so making things harder for ourselves when we attach ourselves to a particular manner of doing things that we do not realize that we are getting in our own way. Some of us, like me, don’t care about it if we get in our own way, because some of us, no matter what anyone else thinks or wants to believe, need to “get in our own way” because doing so is part of our process. This is not the thing that too many other people want to believe as being the truth. I wouldn’t believe it either if, over the years, I did not “get in my own way,” most assuredly, I would have made a wait that was already making me go out of my mind make me go that much more out of my mind. There are so many different ways of being, and so many different manners by which we each and all singularly go about doing the things that we do, and there are so many people who want us to do things the way that was successful for them, that we become muddled with too many options. Having too many options is not a good thing all the time, namely when those options are ones whose only outcome is not that great.

The Opposite Way is the way that we have never been taught about. The opposite way goes against the grain of all that the general population does not want to accept as being viable and doable even as it is not the same as everyone else. That is where the confusion sets in for us all. On one side, doing something a certain way has worked for a number of people, and when it doesn’t work for us, we start thinking that somehow, Spirit hates us and wants to use us as a good example of a bad example. This is not the truth. What Spirit really is telling you is that you have a much different way about things, and that includes the way that you manifest things into your life. When that happens, it is not that Spirit hates you, it is that Spirit is stretching you.

When Spirit stretches you things are not easy in our lives, and when things are not easy in our lives, we tend to become just human rather than souls as humans. This is not something that we are not supposed to do. It is something that we do not want to do or like knowing about. We have no other manner by which to be other than to be flesh and blood. As flesh and blood we are meant to come up with different ways of being so as to accommodate the ways that we are not being or perhaps cannot be. This is when we do not realize that it is our prompting to go ahead and think outside of the box, and as humans we are not good at doing this, at least a whole lot of us.

I mentioned that my Lunar sign is Taurus. Simply put, if you know a Taurus, then you know that they are stubborn as hell, and this is as much the truth when the Moon in a person’s chart is in the sign of the bull or in any sign that is fixed. Yet, this is not a writing about astrological tendencies, but about human tendencies to not want to change the way that a whole lot of us does anything at all. It is about how we can recognize what our options are in spite of ourselves.

In recognizing what are our options, there other things that we need to see there that are not optional for everyone, including their right to do things in their own way

There is now and always will be one trait that is very particular to me – I dislike, very much, being told what to do. I am like this because my whole life I have been told what to do and actually took the advice of other people, and more, their words of challenge which did me more damage than good. When I was or am told what to do and followed another’s way of doing things, those things did not and typically do not turn out the way that the other person told me that they would. The let down is not for them, but for me. I am sure they meant well, but the bottom line is that we are not able to do things the way that other people do, and sometimes we do things in the opposite way.

Then there are times when we want to not let other people down and we take their advice against our better knowing. The only one who ends up with a big mess, usually, is us, because really, we cannot do things the way that other people do, at all. We might be able to mimic their actions, but what matters is not that we can mimic. What matters is that we understand, and sometimes when someone else is trying to get us to understand their way it causes us to have these feelings within us that somehow, they think we are not good enough or smart enough, NOT to get ourselves out of a jam, but, use our own way of doing things, even if how we do those things is the very opposite of the way they or anyone or even everyone else does stuff.

This is a very hard thing for us humans being to grasp, whether we are the person giving the advice or opinion or the person on the other side of it, and for the life of us, we cannot help ourselves but to try hard to take the advice, even when we know the energy doesn’t fit.

We try to do things the way that someone else tells us that we ought to because all humans like to think that if it worked for someone else, it will work for anyone. Yet, what they or we are not thinking about in terms of the outcome is that not everyone’s outcome is going to be the same. This is not because of more than the fact that we are all very different and in being so, we are all going to have different outcomes, even when those very outcomes have similarities to the outcomes of others. Sometimes, the outcome is the very polar opposite. This is not something, again, that we think about when thinking in terms of the emotional self and where all of the emotional pain resides within us. When we are taking the advice of other people, we are not thinking about things in terms of the damage that could happen if we don’t also depend on our own devices. We are only thinking about getting through whatever it is that we are getting through fast. Then there is the other side of that, the side that tells us that we don’t want to let anyone down, and since it is that we asked their advice, we don’t want to have wasted their time (never mind that what might have worked for us might not work as well for someone else – it’s that whole…sun sign and who we are thing that doesn’t allow us to successfully do things the way that others have …please …keep reading…). Instead, because we have been trained so well to take directives, we take their advice, because we don’t want to hurt them, and in turn we end up hurting ourselves and ultimately putting it further away, the outcome that we know is on its way.

You have heard it a buncha times in the past – how we get there is not ours to deal with, but that of Spirit’s

Humans being…we don’t like being out of control, and we will go to great lengths to control other people. It is the reason that I am constantly “on guard” with my own self in terms of other people, because I do not want anyone else thinking that I am trying to control or to manipulate who they are or what they do so as to better serve me. There are, however, a whole lot of people on this planet who still believe that they are able and even due the very right to do this and do so (or at least I have been told) that it is for “our own good.” What I really want to know is how it is that another human being is going to tell anyone else what they ought to do if their own life is not what they envision as their future. While my methods these days of doing anything are truly not the most conventional way of doing things, where it is in my life that I am concerned (Read:EVERYWHERE) and which require me to do what I need to do for me so that those who share my life with me won’t stay stuck to the idea that I can become quite a bitch if you give me reason, the bottom line is that I am who is meant to guide my life, and this gives me the right to do things my way.

Sometimes…okay almost all the time…because of who I am and what I do in this lifetime OTHER than go to school, I cannot, and neither will I ever, do things the way that anyone else does them, and unless I ask someone for their opinion, rarely these days will I give a shit about it if the way that I do anything regarding me somehow bothers anyone else at all. Why? Because they are not living in my shell of a body, and they have not experienced in total or in depth the things that I have. That is not something that I can change and not something that anymore now that I am willing to change so that someone…anyone…else will be comfortable about how they feel about my “things” in life. I get it…it is out of concern, and that is fine, but the concern needs to arise from other things, like having witnessed something actually happen to me because of the way that I think and the way that I do what I do.

There is no one else on this planet who can do for the each of us what it is that the each of us can do for ourselves. I mean, yes, the people who give us advice do love us, and the more that we are able to see this, the more that we will know this. What I am talking about is that, there are folks we share the air with who cannot come away from the idea that they have all the right answers. The worst part about our not taking their advice is that when we don’t, they want to tell us that things will never work out to our favor, because we didn’t do things their way. And really, who is anyone at all to tell another person that the way they are handling anything at all is wrong if it is not done the way that they…the others…have instructed and directed us to do, as though we are dependent upon their outcome.There are even people who give advice solely for the purpose of having been right and patting themselves on the back for “saving” someone else.

I can’t do that. I am sure that in the past I have done that, but these days, I don’t give advice – I advise, and that is a different thing all together.

I advise others that they don’t have to do things the way that the rest of the world does things – they can do things the opposite way, which is not always the exact opposite way, but rather and only the way that is not everyone else’s way.  Think about that one for a moment. Wrap your head around it and see it for what it is – because what it is is the truth.

The Opposite Way

I am a Pisces. It is a sign which lives by its dual nature, and those who know me personally also know, for real, that I live up to that energy of duality. There is no one else in their lives who, like me, will delve into every possibility of outcome, just to make sure that whoever it is that I am talking to has more than only one thing to choose as what it is that they want to direct their energies toward manifesting. I am not one to be held back in terms of thought process, in terms of how it is that I care to do things in the manner that I do them.

There are a few people in my life who I probably drive crazy based on this one thing alone. There are people who know me well enough to know that I might ask their opinion, for their assistance, but never their advice…unless it is something legal, then it is advice. Anyway, there are few people whose advice, lately, I will take. Sure…I will convene minds with other water signs, because they are like I am, but for the most part, when I am advised, you can bet that from all of those people and all of the piece of advice they give me, I am making sort of an “outcome salad” with it, in that I have been offered the pieces to this puzzle called “The outcome,” and because of my duality, really, there is not another sign on this planet other than a dual sign who can effectively make shit happen when shit is done in the opposite way.

I am, by and large, a nontraditionalist. I cannot, by my very own personal energy signature, do things in the most conventional manner. I am, like any other water sign, highly artistically creative, and this does not only mean in the actual manner – it means in every manner. There is not a person alive who knows me who does not know this about me. I have real issues with people who tell me that being this way is wrong. Note that I did not state that I have problems with people who are traditionalists…I have a huge issue with people not accepting that I am not the same kind of traditionalist, and as such, at least in their opinions, I do things “ass backward.” A person can tell anyone at all that they are doing things “ass backwards,” but the bottom line is that it is not that way at all, but rather and only a way that is not the way that has worked for everyone else.

Being that I am like this – that I will come up with a lot of different ways to come up with one good solution to try, one after another – means that everything that I do will be done in the most “me” way that it can be done, and from my own experience of walking around in this body for forty five years what I can state as being absolutely the truth is that I do things in the very most opposite way that most people do things. Yes, it very dearly irritates some of the most wonderful people in my life, makes them want to steer clear of me and that is okay – I cannot be this way and not allow the acceptance that others are also this way. However, there is the fine line drawn at the idea that doing things one’s own way, namely when it is the opposite way, is doing things the wrong way.

It is not wrong to be who you are. (Unless if who you are hurts other people, then you might not be wrong but you surely need to get some help) It is wrong to impose your way onto others. Sometimes people are going to do things their way. It means that they, like you, might not be able to be told what to do and more, they may well not appreciate the idea that you think you have all the answers. I was this person, the one with all the answers. Then one day, I didn’t have any answers, not even for myself. It was the realization that no one way of coming to any conclusion is going to be the only right way. It taught me that we are not required to think along the lines that the rest of the world does – we only have to think our way and do things our way and not everyone else’s.

It bothers some people that people in general will not always take their advice. It bothers people that not everyone will follow their lead and sometimes, we don’t need to be a leader, we don’t need to follow, we just need to be and to trust our damned selves to do the right thing, even if the right thing is the opposite way.

Doing things the opposite way doesn’t mean you are doing them the wrong way. It means that you are secure enough in yourself in doing things your way, which very well might be the opposite way from what everyone else does them. There is nothing wrong with that.

In fact, thinking in our own way and for our own selves is not the wrong way at all…

…it is indeed the opposite way and the way of the Soul…

I Love You All


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