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The Black Flame

FEar Not the Black Flame

Our fear has a color. Our fear has an energy. Our fear has led us into the darkness. Our fear has brought us to our knees. Our fear exists for a reason. Our fear is ours. Our fear is powerful and can empower us.

When things seem like they are taking a toll on all of life, and when things seem to want to take us out of the game, so to speak, it is at this time that we need to open our hearts, our minds, our souls, and listen for the message from Spirit. It has been a very long time since the last time I was the vessel through which the message of empowerment, a message Divine in nature and for the all of us has been received. This is a message from Spirit, reminding us that we are not meant to live in fear, but that we are supposed to use that which scares us as our tools for empowerment.

“Fear not the Black Flame…”

Many Souls do not understand that what is happening now is meant. It is meant so that you each and all can realize the empowered souls that you each and all are.

You shun your fears, embracing what was, giving life and self to it all, sacrificing all to the nothing that is the past.

You cannot see past your fears, and it is your fears which you do not know and neither realize will empower you. This is not the time to see only the Flame of the Violet comfort, but rather, also and a time to embrace that which scares you in the depths that offer you the quiet comfort of the scars and the wounding that the past has gifted you with.

Without those scars you have nothing to refer to.

Without those scars, you haven’t any fears.

Without those scars, you are not the powerful you incarnate.

You walk between the worlds, confused, feeling alone, but the truth is that you are not ever alone, are always guided, kept safe in the arms of Spirit. Your tangible selves cannot discern the difference between the pain and the lesson, and from that vantage point you see only that which harms.

You do not see it as a rite of passage, only as the harm brought to your ego self’s comfort, your ego self’s inability to conjure those things through tangible means, that which empowers you.

There is no empowerment in having, only in not having, and this is not what you have all been shown, been taught is the truth, had the chance to live inside of, unless you have chosen the path of the Black Flame.

Many choose this path, and many choose also to not complete the walk on this path of the Seer, the Prophet, the Healer, the Shaman, the Sorcerer, the Warrior. You want this energy, this power, this ideal about you all to be seen but you have not been willing to release yourselves to the sweet comfort of the pain turned into power. 

It is in those things of a tangible nature not realized that hurts your ego self, but in the Spirit’s natural state, you do not understand that you are more empowered when you feel as though you are at your lowest and weakest point.

Many have come before you, to this place within, where it is that the monsters of the past come to eat your soul and find you wounded, but wounded in the sense that is the Warrior, the Warrior who is battle scarred, the Warrior who has only one way to walk, the walk of the Black Flame Path. 

This is the Path that you have chosen, the one which you know, deep within, is the very one which you will ever revel in, the one that you alone, even while in the company of others within your soul’s tribe, was meant so that you would, upon completion of this part of the journey, know that your power came through your broken self, through heart ache indescribable, through losses on more than only the tangible level, through the very beating down of the soul within you.

Yet, you do not know that it was not a beating down, but was meant to bring to the surface the treasures within, through the gritted teeth and the rivers of tears which fell. It was the Black Flame, with its sharpened and heated energy that scored you, that showed you who you are rather than only who and what you used to Be.

The Black Flame is the darkness, is the part of the soul within you, within all of you, even in its dark manner, has brought you to victories, brought you through the illusion that is sometimes the arrogance of the self, has shown you the way, even as you each and all, every time, looked away. You saw in the flame your fear, your shame, your pain, the harm, and in that instance of remembrance, you were intentionally brought low so that you would know what it means to be who you are, for real, and in this lifetime, which is special, and more than you care to accept.

It is the Path of the Black Flame Warrior, the one who carries the Light of the Violet Flame in one hand, tools for battle in the other, combining the two energies, and coming to the peak of who you are, and it frightens you down in the soul.

You truly only know that one fear – the one which resides within and within the very depths of the soul.

In the tangible world you are fearless, because you can control what it is that is without you, but in the soul sense, you do not recognize what scares you, and you look away, turning your gaze toward things recognizable rather than that which needs your attention.

You must be willing to retake your battle gear, to look deep within the Black Flame, see your very tired selves there, and continue the Path.

It was not ever, nor shall it ever be, promised that the Black Flame Path of the Warrior is anything but a difficult one. Within the ranks are many who have lost what seemed their lives, but that is not the truth of you, not one of you, as each of you has a guided, important mission, one shared with others like you, and one which you traverse with the strength of the heart of the Warrior that you are, that you have always been, even upon entrance to this consciousness.

You have never not been this you.

You have always been this you.

You chose the Path of the Black Flame, the Path of the Warrior of Spirit.

Walk not in Fear.

Pursue your fear like the prey that you have felt you have been, and eat the face of the monster that haunts your every bit of being, of Soul, of Heart, of Thought, of Being…

…Yours is the Path of the Black Flame Warrior. 

Stand Up and Be within your Power, never allowing your fear to be more than what it has always been meant as…

Yours to use as the ultimate empowerment, as the weapon of choice, and the light which guides you along this chosen path which you tread, not trudge, with the others who are as battle scarred, wounded by the fight between the darkness and the light which we all live and breathe and call Life.

Fear not The Black Flame. It is Your Power.

Do That Shit


We were not meant to be exactly alike. The world seems to like stealing our individuality from us from a very young age, and we are not taught, ever, to be anything other than conformists.

It is not some sort of secret – I am a non conformist

I do not like being told what to do, as much as I dislike telling people what to do. It is not my place to tell others who they are, what they should do, what I think of them.

Yet, this is not something that is very typical in our world, but it ought to be, because it is old already – the idea that we have to be like everyone else.

Because I have had two shitty, terrible, emotionally harsh weeks of bullshit, and since it is that I am really very dearly tired of reminding people to stand up and be stand alone, today I thought I might fill your heads with nice things rather than lessons of what to watch out for.

I can do that next week.

Don’t conform. It isn’t good for you on all levels. Instead, be you and only you.

Make no apologies for it – just go out into the world, starting today, and just be completely yourself. If being you means that you wear a hot pink lampshade and an orange gingham outfit, then that is what that means. If being you means that you choose to dress in drag, then do it. If being you means that someone else is going to be pissed off if you do, I say get your asses out there and do that shit, just because.

I say that, just because you are you, you ought to get out into the world and make a scene if you care to, just don’t hurt anyone when you do. I say that if being you means that you stand near a bus stop, guitar and portable amp in hand, shredding like there will be no tomorrow, then do that shit.

Get your ass out there and just do that shit. It don’t matter if good and upright appearing people have a problem with it – go…now….do that shit.

If it makes your soul happy, brings a smile to you, does not hurt another person (even though it might annoy them) get out there into the world and do that shit.

If you feel like part of you is ready to rip through your skin, ready to come out and play, ready to be and ready to be seen…you know it…do that shit.

If you want to run down the street or through a field, in the rain, through mud puddles, but not through the mall or in a crowd screaming your head off…fuckin’ A – do that shit.

If you want to cry, laugh, rage…do that shit

Do all the shit that you were told not to do, just because you wanna do that shit, and do all the shit that you thought you could never do, because someone else said it wasn’t right (even though it wasn’t hurting anyone) – do that shit.

Do everything that will make you happy, as long as it doesn’t outright hurt someone else, and I say that because when we do the shit that we know to do rather than the shit we have been told to do, someone always is going to be ass hurt – so, fuck ’em…just go do that shit.

This is a short one today, and it is because I gotta do some shit

I’ll be back next week…but…I’m gonna get out there in the world and go do that shit…that shit that I like doing…

I Love You All


And even angels have their demons…

Alōha Pō’alua ~ Hello Tuesday!

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Good day, my friends, and a happy Aloha Tuesday to you all. Have a fantastic day. Peace be with you.

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Surrendering to The Flow


The word “Surrender” carries with it a very negative energy. What we have been taught is weakness is actually a strength, because it takes a strong person to simply just let go and let Spirit do Her Thing.

If you were to ask a complete stranger the question, “when you think about the word, ‘surrender,’ what picture comes to your mind?”

The answers I got were not so shocking.

Of course, it was only one complete stranger who I asked this question of, and the other four people I asked I have known for a very long time. The majority thought about the word “surrender” is not a positive one. Each answer allowed me into the others’ energy fields, and each of these people all gave me basically the same answer – that surrendering to the things that happen and that they have no control over is not an option because they all want to believe that they have or had the best method of getting out of a jam.

When I made it obvious to them each that what they were saying was missing information, it was they who became upset with me, because I would not agree with them each in the thought that over every single little thing that happens in our lives and that sucks miserably, we are who has complete control. To each of them I also stated that if they were inclined to read and continue reading whatever it is that they have been reading by new age “gurus” and their best selling books, that they were only getting half of the story and that really, in many of those books, what is not there is the one common thing between us all, and that common thing is that really, there will come times in our lives where things that happen out of nowhere come to us without a simple fix and that sometimes, when those things happen, it is meant that seriously, we ride it out, surrendering to the Flow of things.

The Flow of Things

I have written more than one time about surrendering and how much I dislike doing it. It is not that I am not willing to do it, but that I do not know sometimes what it means to surrender to the situation.

For a long time, the situations, at any given time, called for anything but surrendering to it, but it was not the actual occurrence that I needed to surrender to, but instead, the idea that sometimes, no matter how great the idea, and even if the idea that would help with the situation worked, it would not work until the thing that we are meant to learn from it has been learned.

I have a whole lot to say about someone who abuses their partner in life, and I have a lot to say about the person and the people who, even though a few of them might not have been how they were because they wanted to be that way, but because they were taught that way. (Which, even if they were taught that way, we are all able to learn new ways, meaning that in some of their cases, it might have just been a cop out so as to excuse themselves from having behaved like less than stellar humans)

Sometimes we are not able to do a single thing about anything that has happened to us, or that is happening to us as brought to our awareness by others. Sometimes the things that happen are collective, meaning that it happens to more than only one of us. Sometimes, we are powerless as to the things happening due to the fact that perhaps physically, we are not capable of defending ourselves, and sometimes, as sad as it might be to think about it, it won’t matter, because sometimes, we are just meant to go through things.

Yes, even as children, and that is the part that hurts the most. It hurts because as children we are made of nothing but the purest, most beautiful light that there is, and then someone comes along and begins to put their darkness on us, and while it might be that we have, in that moment, been harmed, it is also at the time when we are given what could be thought of as our first lesson in Spirit. As sad as that seems, it is the truth.

…sometimes, we are just meant to go through things…

…and it is always with purpose that we do.

These last two weeks, as I am sure you can all tell, haven’t been very easy for me. It seems and feels to me as though I have been fighting my own demons for so very long now that I cannot see it when someone else’s are trying to teach me a lesson, and this time it was a lesson in fear, because this time it has everything to do with what I do in this lifetime.

Even though all of me knows, down deep in the bones of my soul, that the option that I took was the one that would, at this moment, be the most fitting, be the most comforting and yes, quite possibly the very sanest choice I have made in a little over a year at this point, I am still scared to death, even though I know that that part of what I do needed, not to be put on the back burner, but really, to be no longer in existence.

While I know this, and while I know that it is the thing that has to be done, I am still terrified, not at the loss, but at what I will do with all of that time that taking this option affords me with. See that? This is how we humans are taught – that more is better, but I know that in this case, the better thing to do was to step back, and as much as I could do so, look at things from a logical standpoint and see where it was that what I am doing, as opposed to what I do, and opposed, also, to what I am very good at – the only thing TO do was simply just…accept that it has to be this way.

Acceptance of things is not easy for us

Okay, so it probably is not a secret that I am talking about one part of my work in this world – the coaching individuals part, that is. It is something that I have watched happening over the last year, and for the very last time, I chose to no longer feel that way about the things that I do in this lifetime as my work in the world. The last thing that any one of us wants to do is to not love our work in its entirety. I love my work in its entirety. When it happens that I start feeling a bit weighted down by one part of it, lately I have just begun to ponder the feeling and question it as well.

This past week was no exception, and really, the signs have been there for a while now in that I know that in many ways, I have grown past the thought in me that I have to do this part of my work just because that is the typical way that we who work in the weirdness have basically done things – we do all that weird ethereal stuff, and then there are the tings that we do that can be thought as being side jobs within the weirdness, but always and only it is primarily the weirdness that is our work and NOT the technical one-on-one with coaching clients.

I have always had a very dear love for words, whether they are spoken, written, sung, signed – words are passion. It is evident in my work, evident in my speech, and evident in the choice of movement coupled with music in so far as hula is concerned. I love words. Words are my friends. Words have been there for me as long as has been hula. Words never fail me and words make me know that I am not stupid…I love words.

Unfortunately, sometimes my words are not taken for what I tell others that they are, and there are others on this planet who like to think that words are meant to be used as weapons. What those others do not realize is that I am not the one who should be attacked with words, with my own words, no less, when it comes to the barest fact of things that when we use our words with other people, we need to remember that they also can hurt others. I am not a person who chooses her weapons foolishly. My words, I know, because of my broad knowledge of them and my somewhat extensive vocabulary, can confound people, can hurt people without my realizing that they have hurt someone.

I find, too, that the energy from the words coming from others, specifically those who I have coached over the years, find their way to that place in  me where I am forced to defend who I am to these people, and when it gets there, and the people are just not willing to see their own self in the things happening in their own lives, it is not time, at that moment, to become ass hurt. It is time, in that moment, to take stock of what the bigger picture is telling me, and this time, the bigger picture told me that my time for proverbially holding the hands of people and being “mommy”, in their eyes, perhaps, who ought to know better has come to a screeching halt.

Of course, this just about did me in. I am one of those people whose madness is in the fixing, not of things, but of thoughts, specifically in other women, and particularly women who have, in some manner, either been wounded in some manner, or, have wounded someone else in some manner. When I find that everything that I have given to people in the form of teaching them to restructure a sentence using different words which mean the same thing but also which carry a lighter vibration to them, does not work, and it happens again and again, and I am left feeling like somehow it is my fault that these people…these…women people…have not learned a damned thing, I start to second guess myself and the validity of my work.

This is what has been happening since January, the trickling away of students who, in their tangible realities, would like things different. I did not really think about it too much until these last two weeks when it seemed like everything just came crashing into me at full speed. It seemed like everything that I have gone to college for, and everything that I have gone through, and everything that I thought I had pinned everything on at this time was for nothing. Yet, when I looked at it again over the last two days, the picture, while it did not change immediately, it ultimately changed.

It changed for me because I did not bother to do the same pattern of things that I would in the past, even the recent past, and that pattern typically makes me crazy in the brain looking for a new way to promote my coaching, but none came to my brain. When it is that I, specifically, have no new thought about something, about anything, it means that things are evolving and that it took me a minute, not to know this, but to accept it.

I have known for a long time that I would not be coaching people primarily, and in all of that time, the one thing that I did not bother to look at was that over that period of time, I had been already preparing myself for it. Of course, tangibly speaking, I had to prepare myself for an even leaner time for me, even as there were other things that were supposed to happen that have not yet happened, and it is because of this thing that I did not want to do but am nudging myself little by little to do, which is to not – NOT surrender to the situation, but rather and only surrender to the Flow of things, because in the flow of things is where not only the seeds of change are, but also, the relief from knowing that we took that moment to think about what it is that IS, rather is NOT, serving us.

And that is what this thing that surrender, in terms of our inner world, is all about. When we choose to allow the flow of things to happen FOR us instead of seeing it all as only happening TO us, we find that there is great freedom in that which was perceived as the loss. I forget, sometimes, that when I speak my intentions, and I mean what I speak for real, and there is conviction behind it, emotions backing it, and that visual of it all coming into play, I am a very strong intuit, and a strong manifester, and all of those things are backed by very Strong Medicine – that of my being the survivor of a life time of a broken heart caused abuse on many levels, brought by many people.

I never wanted to tell the world about what happened in my life, but here I am, and I never wanted to allow the world into my private hell of the brainspace, but again…here I am. And what does that have anything to do with surrendering to the flow of things?


It took me a bit of time to really think about what it was that my coaching was doing, but not for the people who I served, but for me, and I found out it was really not doing a whole lot in terms of adding to my life, the things that I wanted, because I have already done that. The reason that this flow is what it is right is now simple – I find that in my life, I have the important things that are needed and that what is not needed are these extra bits and shards of the wreckage that is my ear being filled with other peoples’ tragedy. This is not saying that I do not care about those people, but is saying that I care about me.

Caring about me means that I have to take measures to not do what does not feel right and balanced, because those things that I try to force will just throw me out of balance more. Caring about others is just who I am, but at some point, and when it becomes that they have become, as my clients, dependent on my advice and my knowledge, so as to get along in life?

Surrender to the Flow, guys

We will know when it is that we have to change course, always. We will know when things need to change because we will not feel like what we are doing is doing a thing for us, not in the material sense, but in the soul. When I started feeling like my coaching clients were absolutely draining me of my every bit of energy, and when I would come away, not only from a session with some of them, feeling completely weighted down, I knew that it was time, by the Goddess’ method of making me want to hide in a cave for a year but not finding a cave in which to do so, to begin to surrender a few things.

I thought for a moment about it all, and realized that the fear of not having that possible income is what was driving me to continue to help people and at the same time was robbing from me the vital energy needed for the rest of my day, let alone life. I thought about how hard it has become in these last few weeks to even get in touch with some of them, and how much it seemed like I was simply and only just running in the same circle, with the same people over the same reason. I thought about how it is that in my private life there are still some things that just need not be there anymore and how much of my attention was being placed on people who would never do for me what I have even begun to offer to them. I thought about how much time I felt like I wasted on some things, and about how upset I would be coming away from those sessions.

When I thought about it more, the more it became apparent that the reason that it felt like I was sinking is because I was hanging on to things that were weighing me down. I realized that sometimes, we hang on to our own ideals about what the end should look like, and when it doesn’t look like it, we need to look at it from another perspective, and the perspective that I chose this time was simply and only as me in my private life. I saw how some of those peoples’ issues were touching my own life.

Lots of folks want to think that surrendering to the flow of things means that you have to give up something that you think you might need. It doesn’t. What it means is that you are willing to forgo feeling obligated to certain energies just because of something tangible, and in my case that tangible thing would be my title as Reverend. Just because that is what I am, it does not mean that who I am has to give in to the things that would make anyone crazy, and to me, what is crazy is just trying hard to make things fit into a life that those things so clearly do not fit into.

When we feel like we have to work or force something to go our way, the ultimate result is always going to be temporary, and will be so even though the tangible things will remain as said tangible thing.

What we don’t think about when we are buggin’ over surrendering to the Flow of life is that the things we think need to change do not change…we do. How we feel changes, and how we approach things changes, and what we do in regards to those things also changes. This is why things happen in our lives that we don’t understand – so that we can, with some effort, go with the flow. When those things that enter into our lives seem not to fit where everything else fits, it is time then to really look at that one thing in relation to the rest of it all.

Seriously, learn what surrendering to the flow really means, and then, like breathing, just do it…

I Love You All !



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What Growth Requires

Growth Requires Failure

It seems that just when we get to a place where we think we can’t “fail,” where even as we know we are at the top of our game, the Universe throws some uglies at us that make us wonder what the hell it was that we did that would make Her want us to hurt like we do. Truth is…that feeling is what is required for our growth, and more than much else, growth requires some ugly stuff

Ugly stuff.

I know a whole lot about the ugly stuff in life. The ugly stuff in life involves other people, and lots of times, those other people bring to us the seeds of growth through the pain of heart break, of failure, of feeling foolish, of the things that we typically would rather not have to deal with. I am not the only person on this planet who goes through the uglies. We all go through the uglies.

We all go through the uglies

When we are in the middle of our crap, it feels like we are the only person on the planet that is going through anything. Allow me to say right now that no, I am not talking to just one person – I am making it clear to us all, myself included, that in order for us each to grow, we have to hurt, to piss and moan, pitch a bitch, fail at things we know we are tops at.

It doesn’t matter to any of us when we are in the middle of the bullshit, in the middle of the pain, in the middle of everything that is causing our world to seem to just fall apart. When we are thinking that it is falling apart, while I know that we need to see it as the foundations we have built as being fortified or perhaps even destroyed so a new foundation can be built, it does not, for even one moment, make things feel or become easier. In fact, when it is that we find ourselves in the middle of those things that I call “the uglies,” really, the only things that we can focus on are “the uglies.”

Sure…of COURSE we are supposed to be paying attention to the things that matter the most, but when we are hurting in any manner, the only thing that we can focus on is the pain, when really, we ought to be focusing on priorities. What we do not understand is that sometimes focusing on the uglies IS a priority.

The Uglies as Priority

The ugliness in life is the thing that teaches us. I rarely like it. Learning sucks.

Learning sucks because most of the time, it hurts like a bitch. It hurts like a bitch because when we are learning anything we are usually not aware that this is what is going on, and in that energy of confusion, we tend to get a bit…human…and we start trippin’.

What we don’t think about when we are trippin’ is that the words which we are speaking (in my case shouting) contain the very keys to the thing that we are learning. Recently, as in today, and because I can’t lie and say that I don’t want my coaching practice to grow, I had to get a little bit raw on people. What folks do not understand about anyone outside of themselves is that what we are thinking is the truth is usually only the truth that we are projecting out and onto them. Where it is that we think we know what people are going to say or do is where we might be wrong. Just because we want to assume something about someone else, it does not make it the truth.

What is the truth is how we feel, and how we feel is subject to change. That we have the ability to change our minds and pull our heads out of our okoles is one thing, and by that I mean that there are times when we should be putting our own selves under a microscope, and then there are times when we need to really think about why we feel a certain way and how we got to that feeling and more, to look at the overall time in life we are having.

The overall time in life that we are having

The overall time in life that we are having is a very powerful thing for us all. I know that when I am subjected to someone else going outside of the boundaries that I set, not only for myself, but for my students and the people who I coach there is a fine line over which I may not cross, not just because of the ethical boundaries in such relationships, but more, that’s just how I roll.

And really, when the times in our lives that we are having seem to suck, it is because of something that we have to learn about the theme of the lesson, the energy that is presented to us and most of all, what it all symbolically means for any one of us. Right now, the theme in my life is bearing down and bearing through the bullshit. It is not easy, by any means, and it is not an awesome feeling to think that everything that I worked towards at this point seem to not mean that much to the people with whom I spend my time working with. Sometimes, to be very honest, I find it far easier to sit here, writing these things and not having to deal with the things that other people bring to me.

Sometimes, I just want to crawl into a hole and hide there, even though I know that it is sort of my duty as a worker of the Light to heed the call when prompted.

However, this doesn’t mean that I get to do that. In fact, it means the very opposite, because the very opposite of that is the lesson in figuring out the real reason why I want to hide in a hole sometimes.  I am not the only person on this planet who feels like this from time to time, and in a lot of areas in my own life, I feel like a loser. In the areas that I know I am good in, I feel like I am the Queen of the Universe. The reason that the lessons are present at this time is simple – whatever it is that I am learning, that any one of us is learning, is meant for us to be able to transition out of one place in life, perhaps a place where we have been immobile for a very long time, to another, newer, more freedom giving place.

Yet, we cannot get to that freedom giving place unless we understand why it is that we feel bound in the first place.

Understanding why we feel bound in the first place

We feel bound because (ugh…I hate saying it because it applies to me, too) is because we are allowing ourselves to have that feeling, that energy of negativity brought to us by the things that we do not want to do, do not want to hear, do not want to know. Typically, and, again, I am totally included in this – we are prone to avoidance when it comes to the things that we know we need to see to but would rather just not.

I loathe the fact that I am not living in the tangible manner that my own soul tells me I am meant for, that I am working towards, and that I, alone, am building a future out of nothing, literally. All I have are my words, my ability to dance, and an insane amount of creative energy. While I know that these are the things that I have been given for the purpose of that foundation, I am terrified – what if things don’t turn out like I want them to? What if, all this time, I have been doing this work and was meant to be doing other kind of work? What if, all this time, I have been wrong and really, I am more of a joke of a coach and what if….

What I fail to see is the other side of the “what if.”

The other side of the “what if…”

The other side of the “what if” is what if it all works out, and all I was being was a silly, 3rd dimensional human? What if things are really going my way, and because the only thing that I can focus on at this time is the fact that there are obstacles in my way of the life that I am working toward?

Well, what if things work out, and what if you end up with something that is better than the thing that you thought you ought to have, and what if that one thing was something that you would have not even thought to even consider otherwise once it was that this new…end result…was so much better? This is the thing that none of us thinks about – the idea that things actually might be way better if we should choose to allow it to be that way. The problem with us human being type people is that we are so results oriented that we have not bothered to think about what could happen if we just choose to allow the Universe and not what other people tell us, not what our worrying minds will make us believe?

What we don’t realize is that the results that we get are the results we would have gotten if we were meant to have that result.

What we don’t think about is that while we are so stuck on the one result that we are focused upon, is that we are cutting ourselves off from what we could have, and what we could have might well be way better than what we think we deserve.

What we are not realizing is that more than anything else, our lives are meant to be lived, not scrutinized and never thought to be a waste of time.

Our growth requires that we hurt, because if we do not know how to hurt, we cannot learn. If we cannot learn, we cannot grow. If we do not grow, we remain in the manner that we are, with all of those things in our faces that we do not want in our lives, let alone in our awareness. We can choose to remain in the manner that is hurting, in pain, confused and not at all happy with our lives, or we can choose to do what we know to do, which is always something for ourselves with others in mind, where what it is that we see as our higher learning is meant for us to be the thing that, with our own help, will help us heal from the things which scare the shit out of us all the time.

When we are in a growth energy, our lives are painful. When we are going through what we are going through, we cannot see the end and we cannot hope for it to happen as fast as we want it to – this is because there is learning to be had, and in that learning is the sense that will be made that we are looking for while we are trying hard to not have to hurt so much. I am not going to be that person who will tell anyone to go through the pain without also telling those people that if they choose to think of the bullshit they are going through now, and think about it all in terms of it being something that is going to benefit us in the long run, then we can also see there, as well, that we never have to be the person who was in that much pain.

The Reason?

Because once it is that we have gone through things that hurt us, we can choose to never have to go through them again in quite the same manner that we’d gone through, over and over again, likely for a very long time.

I Love You All !




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