We all know that when one circle is completed, that another has been fully ignited…
I see that I am not the only one for whom many circles have been made full over the last six months. We all have been waiting, and for the very life of us we know not what to do with this part of the winding down of certain things and of certain ways of being.
There is a whole lot of hopelessness at the moment. There are marriages ending, and there are people losing jobs, and hope, and what no one seems to think about (that is, unless you are somewhat the same way that any Professional Weirdo would be) is the fact that once one circle is made full, already underway is the starting of the closure of more than only that one circle. We humans like to think or believe that we have control of everything, but really, we don’t. We have less control over things than we care to accept.
Once we can accept things as they are, we begin to notice our own patterns, and when we can sense and notice our own patterns we can also sense when these circular endings and beginnings happen. I will not elaborate on too much of my very own recent circular endings, but I will say that after the past six years of my feeling like I have nothing and have nothing to give, I find myself very incorrect in that idea, because within that idea, as coupled as it is with the other idea that we have to also lean on our egotistical selves for our answers as well as our Soul Selves, in that idea are the seeds and the clues of what is next to become a part of our lives. At this point in our human lives, and after all of the nastiness that we each and all have been through to this point, we should be well equipped with all of the things that we need in our lives to handle it all.
There are a lot of us who are prepared, and many more who are not. Those of us who are not will find it very difficult to take me for my word on this when I say, to anyone, that the best is yet to be. If we are patient, we will know this, all the way down to the very Bones of our Souls.
The things in our lives that have left us feeling naked and open
We feel like we are all on stage somehow. Some of us are used to it, but too many of us are not, and we are in the spotlight via our own behest of it. We are seeing the things within us that we are not very proud of knowing about ourselves, but I must remind you all that whether or not you realize it as the truth, what you are seeing in front of you are either the remnants of what was and is no longer needed by you, or are the beginnings of a few things that you, yourselves, have asked Spirit for, and here they are…the fun part is that unlike any other time in our lives, whether we think it is the truth or not, they are ours and we created them and hell yes – even though a lot of us are not ready for the bigness of things to come, they are just about here.
It is because, for the most part and for the most of us, we have been readying ourselves now for about two decades. In that time we have evolved into the people who we are right now. If you think back twenty years you will understand one thing – you may not be that same person, but you have those same inclinations, and all of it is about Love of the Self and of the Soul within. For that long now, we have all burned, have all hurt, have all been proverbially gnashing our teeth because for that long, we have been learning and gearing ourselves to this point.
Up to this point, things seem as though they are really a mess
Things are this way and with good reason – because collectively we are not all on the same page and need to be. There are always going to be people who just refuse to wake up, refuse to see what it is that those among us who are dearly enlightened to the evolving of all of mankind on a global level. They are scared. They like the way things are, even though as they are right now, things kinda suck for a whole lot of people.
If it were that I believed that things were always meant to suck, that we are all bad people and we all deserve this garbage that we are all going through right now in some manner, I might not also be able to sit here believing that I am right when I say that if we looked at all of our lives, and thought about them in the singular sense, and thought, too, that the reason we are going through whatever it is that any one of us is experiencing, we would KNOW that it is all meant to be.
To Be, even.
My initial thought is that we have, for so long and throughout the recorded history of mankind, just accepted the idea that there are people who tell us what to do, and that there are people who are told what to do and that the majority of us are really very tired of pulling a heavy wagon that is not ours alone. I am also thinking that it is about time that we each and all chose to be who we are, because, as I state, over and over again, who we are does not really change, at least at our core.
My greatest example is that I am always going to be me, but that over the years, I went from being the me who got me to this point in time to being who I am now, and that as time moves on, I will still evolve, while the core of me will always be a Pisces whose feet are firmly planted in the idea that I will never not be who I am. This is the same for all of us. Even though I will never not be who I am, how I feel is always subject to change to accommodate the conditions.
This is the same for anyone, everyone, really, and it is without reason that we should be fighting who we are. It is without reason that I should care more than I do about anyone who was bad to me throughout my life. The human being part of me wants them all to hurt like I did, but the healer tells me that my job and my lot in life is to be and to show compassion to every person and to impart to them the measure of Love that is the unconditional sort.
We do not get to choose who will come into our lives or when they will show up. Every person who graces us with their presence and we ,them with ours, is yet one more chance to get the point across to one more human being that there is a lot happening right now in the cosmos. We all know the drill – as above, so below. It makes me wonder why it is, sometimes, that if there is all this unrest and dissatisfaction with one another, why then are we still bothering with trying to save someone else when there is so much within each of our selves that needs to be seen to, healed, forgiven and let go of?
I’ll tell you why – it is because for centuries, we have been conditioned to believe that the most wonderful thing is to sacrifice, everything, even and all the way down to who we are. No one ever thinks that, no matter what – no matter what your pastor says, no matter what your parents told you as a kid, no matter WHAT – you can never ever change the core of you or of who you really are, so why is it that so many of us are still trying to cram our circular selves into these societal square holes?
Societal Square Holes
From a time long before a whole lot of us were on this planet, it was the prevailing thought within the psyche of mankind that people are unruly, because people can reason, meaning that people can make choices. The ancient politicians had no means by which to keep their minions under control. Knowing this much gave them the edge they needed in order to create mass population control, through means of spiritual and religious manipulation and fear.
And yes, I am going to sound VERY judgmental, and it is not usually the way that I roll, but I must, at least this time, when I say that having grown up in a Hell fire and brimstone family that was “guided” by the God of fear and the very same God which seems to not be very loving at all. I grew up with these sorts of parents, the sort who, Goddess bless them both, and as much as I do very dearly Love them, remain, to this day, afraid of what the God they kneel to and practically beg everything from will do to them AFTER they are gone from this lifetime. Why would anyone want to believe in a deity who would turn them essentially into slaves? Why would anyone want to ‘worship’ a god that will turn you out into the hot coldness of this lake of fire I was raised to fear so dearly?
Because. Just like anything else, when fear is the tool used in order to guarantee complete control over anyone at all, it is what will rule your life.
Fear cripples and stifles us
Humans…we fear a whole, whole lot of things, and most of the time it is not really an actual fear of things as much as it is a paranoia about things like whatever it is that we are afraid of being exactly what we want them to be, good or bad.
Fear, though most of the time it keeps us safe, it also cripples us. It makes us mistrustful of ourselves, and this mistrust causes us to mistrust everyone else and everything else, too. By mistrust, I do not mean that you cannot trust, materially, what others give to you, but instead is a mistrust in ourselves. Whatever it is that we feel about ourselves is what we will give out as the energy we have to give to other people. If we convey that we trust everyone, though, we get taken advantage of, dearly. The only way to counteract those things is to learn from them by going through what we have to go through.
I HATE rejection, a whole lot, but I can deal with it, because I have been given a whole lot of it throughout the course of my almost 44 years. I find, really, that a whole lot of people who do not like being rejected for any reason also are the very ones who employ tactics of rejection toward others, and also that these very same people who do like like rejection but feel privy to give it do give it in heaping amounts in the most ugly possible way that they can humanly think to.
Let me tell you something, folks – whatever, no matter WHAT it is, that you employ toward the giving of understanding of you to other people and that which hurts them, you will also experience those very same things, same emotions, same feelings of rejection and hurt. And you who are like this – you demand to know why it is that you feel the way you do. It is because you proverbially want your cake and eat it, too, but you want everyone else to feel like the kid at their own birthday party who is made to wait and to be the last one to get their piece…you know, when it essentially becomes a big messy bunch of melted goop that no one – not even a fat kid who loves cake – wants to eat . We expect people to accept us as we are, but we expect them to be their highest, finest selves where we are concerned (and ONLY we are concerned). We want Love and we want to feel secure in the idea that others Love us, but we, ourselves, want to continue being the Overlords of DoucheLand as much as we can muster being…all to avoid rejection by people who, we, ourselves, judged harshly enough to repel them.
For the life of us, we seem to not want to hurt, but we also do not pay attention to the patterns that create the circles of our lives so that we can know when it is that we might have to hurt (Yes, have to). It is these circular patterns which bring us back to where we need to be, not perfect, but as good as we need to be at the time that we need to be who we are at that moment. We cannot be the perfect picture nor model of perfection – our lives would be dull if we were all perfect. Imperfection allows us to be able to see ourselves in others, to notice how we are very much alike, even as we are each as unique as are the fingerprints we each have that belong only and exclusively to us.
We share our lives with people who are like us, and with those people we see our own selves as we pertain to them. Whoever they think we are in our lives is none of our business to try to change their minds about. Our business is merely to go on about learning who we are through the mechanism of Spirit called “Other People.” Sometimes what we see there will mirror exactly who we are, and in that moment we find that we are the epitome of imperfect perfection, which is as it should be.
You are at this moment in your own history because you wanted to be here and you wanted to have all of these things in your life, both good and yes, bad, as well. You are here and now because you, on your own, without knowing so, created this moment, probably long before you realized that what you wanted when you wanted it that would not be exactly what you thought you wanted when you first wanted it, and here you are, in the now, and that which you wanted is upon you.
My only question is, no matter what you think of this moment and whether that opinion is good or bad…
You brought this moment to yourself.
Now, what are you going to do with it?
Hahahaa…yep…there I go again…making you think.
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